Done :)

As of right now, I am a Senior at Bellarmine University!!!! :) I'm sitting at Nicole's because I can't move into my house til Saturday now :( But other than that, I'm legit!

I love summer <3

Chopped and Screwed

Ya know. I worked so hard on that f-ing paper...And forgot the key element. So I handed in the hard copy and was allowed to add onto the paper for the emailed copy and he'd grade that one..But the highest I could get is a B because it would be late as of 11 a.m. I worked so hard on it. But, it's better than a failing grade. And I can only be mad at myself...

Presentation went well :) MOVING SOON!!!!! :)

Finals

Oh.
My.
Gosh.

Those are the 3 words running through my head repeatedly for the past 3 days. I finally finished my paper...but I'm having the hardest time focusing on my study guide for my final tomorrow...It's killin me! I definitely am gonna need some divine intervention on this final....Pray for me and wish me luck!!!

DONE

Thank God I'm done with junior year minus the finals!!! And to celebrate? Apparently 6 hours of work (filled with studying for finals. boo) and Karsen's birthday celebration tonight at Keaton's. It'll be a good time, I hope..Nice little study break! :)

~Dear God--thank you for this absolutely gorgeous day and for letting me make it through this school year with only minor difficulties. I owe you one. Love, me. Amen~ :)

Lax, Sunburns, and Thunder

So Saturday, I attended the lacrosse game, where I got a nice sunburn on one side of my body. Not gonna lie, it kinda sucked. However, when I went to work, since it was Thunder, no one was in there and I could just kinda sleep the pain off. After work, I made it feel a little better by adopting one of my roommate's dresses and hit up the lacrosse party, thinking I'd catch the eye of someone I like. Ha. Not hardly. But it was still a good time, and I played DD all night for various athletes. I'd much rather not drink and then drive them home than them try and drive and get hurt. Or hurt others. Being a bartender has had a serious effect on my judgment when it comes to drinking.

I have 2 days of classes left, 1 paper due for finals, 2 presentations, and one actual final and then it's SUMMER! I move in with Katie, Alex, and Holly(who took Maria's place) May 1, which is Derby, but we're okay with missing it. WOOO!!!

Home

"there's a yellow brick road that we follow back home 'cause I know you can't wait your belligerent hate there's no place like home there's no place like home like home"

Breaking Benjamin had it right for sure. There's no place like home. Today has been a rage-ful day. I go to Kosters with some friends and I see him. someone who doesn't even deserve right now to have a mouth full of teeth to smile with. How can people stand there and say such obviously outrageous lies about someone and be totally okay with it? Even more of a curiosity to me is why he said the things he did, other than I told him 'no'? What is it with people these days????

Deep breaths and productivity are the key. I've already completed 2 of the 3 powerpoints i need to do, and I'm about to start researching for my portion of a 12-page paper due for our final and then finish researching for my 15 page suicide paper...Wish me luck!

Feelings

Thanks to Leah's inspirational blog, I've decided to try a small list of things too about what I'm feeling today and the realizations that have happened to me today:
~No matter what, music can make you feel better.
~The people who have bad things to say about you, more times than not, have absolutely no room to talk.
~Good friends are incredibly difficult to come by, so when you find one, KEEP THEM.
~If you work at a strip club, it's best NOT to get involved in any of the drama--it just pisses them off more.
~The more faith you have, the less stressful your life is if you just hand things over to Him.
~The more White Russians a person has while studying with a cute guy, the more confident she gets. :)

I have become way more confident in myself and what I am capable of, and it's starting to show, at least I think so. I've also found that blogging every day helps relieve some stress that I didn't need and I feel better after every post, so that's why I post every day. So if you follow this every day, I apologize. :)

<3

:)

Well,I have decided sometimes it's better to just do things. I made the decision to get the feelings out there and it turned out decently well for me...So we'll see ;)

On an unhappy note, I'm pretty sure I failed a test...Not good....Oh well, everything happens for a reason, right? Like maybe I should have studied more....Haha. Now I have plans with the sun to lay out with Caroline, while Will fishes...And while I try not to hit him...

God, grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
the courage to change the things I can;
and the wisdom to know the difference.
Amen.

I'm Ready

There are just some days that you wake up, knowing you have a lot to do, and you just lay in bed going "I can do this." Today is definitely one of those days. I have so many papers and presentations to work on, plus class and work, and I'm just ready to tackle the day. I have 19 days until I move into my house--YAY!--I went for a walk with my bff Leah yesterday before 10 pm mass, only to end up at a bar hanging out with 3 of our international students, 2 of them lacrosse players. We sat outside and drank some and you know what? It was one of the best evenings I've had in a long time. I always have a good time with Leah, but adding those 3 was such a different experience, since I never hang out with them, and I'm looking forward to doing it again.

~I can do all things through Him~

xoxo, til next time--KM

Never Have I Ever...

Popular drinking game....Never have I ever made out with a friend's ex....Ok, that's a lie, but you get the point. This post is what I have done, and what I have felt. Have you ever felt something so intense for someone else that you just WANT to do something about it, but can't find the courage? Or just flat out tell them what's going on in your head? I hate the feeling, and even more, I hate not knowing what to do, and the feeling of just dread of what would happen if you did--what if they laugh? what if I'm just totally not good enough?....I guess I can just keep it in....

Praise God!

Today has been a fantastic day. I knock my interview out of the park and now have a new job at White House Black Market--SCORE! I got all of my errands done, which is a slight first for me, and am now starting my final paper for my sociological theory II class early. I'm just chillin' in the library, which sucks, and it's boring, but at the rate I'm going on this paper, it'll take me all 2 weeks to do it. Who knew a paper on suicide could be so hard?

I work 9-3 am tonight, going to the soccer game before that at 730, then tomorrow I have the baseball game, work, then chillin with my girl Nicole. I move into my house with Katie, Alex, and Maria on the 1st and it can't come soon enough! I'm just so excited!

Thank you, God, for giving me this absolutely gorgeous day, the focus to get so much done, and for the love and support of my family and friends. Amen.

KM

Class

The word "class" can mean so many different things....Webster's defines it as:

1.

a number of persons or things regarded as forming a group by reason of common attributes, characteristics, qualities, or traits; kind; sort: a class of objects used in daily living.

2.

a group of students meeting regularly to study a subject under the guidance of a teacher: The class had arrived on time for the lecture.

7.

a social stratum sharing basic economic, political, or cultural characteristics, and having the same social position: Artisans form a distinct class in some societies.

8.

the system of dividing society; caste.

9.

social rank, esp. high rank.

10.the members of a given group in society, regarded as a single entity.

To say that someone is not in the same "class" as you can be a negative connotation, while maybe the speaker is meaning the classroom setting. I am actually skipping class right now because I have a massive headache and just don't want to be in there--our speaker is making my headache worse. Do I feel bad about it? Yes and no. Yes because I said I had a doctor's appointment, which I should go get my knee checked out, it's been hurting...No because if I don't want to go, I shouldn't HAVE to--I'm not in high school anymore, my mom can't MAKE me go. Plus, the only times I've missed this class were when I was legit sick.

Sometimes I wonder...Where I've been...Who I am....Do I fit in? Make believin'...Is hard alone...Out here...On my own... <3

Everyday

Do you have days where you just...think? Nothing's focused, you don't pay attention in classes...That was me today. I just thought about what was important in my life and I couldn't come up with one thing in particular because I have my family...God...my friends...School....sadly, in that order. My family is dysfunctional, and I love it. There's no such thing as normal...

God will always be my man...I know I'm not the perfect example of what someone should be when they live for Him, but I'm trying, and He knows and He still loves me no matter what.

I have a decent amount of friends, but the one that has constantly been my rock at Bellarmine, the one I can literally talk to about ANYTHING with no taboo subjects, is Leah. Without her guidance and advice, I'd be so completely lost. Thanks Leah, I'm glad you're my best friend :) <3

School...Ugh. School's being saved for tomorrow's blog. :)

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.
Jawaharal Nehru

Always for the love of Him...KM