Back To Reality...

...I'm trying to decide if this is a good thing or not. I'm ready to be back in my own bed instead of on a pullout mattress, but I'm not ready to be back to classes, work, and most of all, away from my family. I've loved not having to wake up at a specific time for anything--minus today, just for church....I've loved not having to go to work....I've loved the fact that I got my paper done for theology the night I got here so I could relax this weekend...

However, it'll mean a lot less watching what I don't want to--don't get me wrong. I love baseball. But not 24 hours a day....It'll also mean a lot less pool time in the middle of October...It'll mean less sleeping in....less doing nothing and not feeling guilty....

I met a couple great people in Nashville this year, had a blast on the town with Leah, had some fun with the parents...But I guess I'm ready to get back to what I'm comfortable with (i.e. Louisville)...I will say, however, that 4th street has been put to absolute SHAME by downtown Nashville :) <3

Nashvegas

Fun times, not gonna lie. Fall break in Nashville with mama and papa Sweitz and Leah...Spent some quality time with mom today shopping, played some cards with dad, just hung out in general..Now it's time for me and Leah to paint this town red!!! :)

definitely need some out time, been a slightly depressing day, and that definitely needs to be changed. Church tomorrow followed by home-made breakfast, putt putt, a spa day at the condos with Leah, then a movie with everyone :) Sad that I can't participate in Canadian Thanksgiving on Monday, but it's for the best...

if you're reading this, please include in your prayers Jack McGetrick. Bellarmine's men's lacrosse coach died today from a long battle of cancer. He was a true inspiration to any who knew him, and he will be missed tremendously. Together Livestrong....

Reasons

Everything happens for a reason...

How many times have we heard this throughout our lives? Parents tell us this when we don't get into the college of our choice; our best friend tells us this when our boyfriend or girlfriend breaks up with us; we tell ourselves this when we fail a test...But do those words ever provide the comfort they're meant to? Maybe, maybe not. I'm the kind of person to go back and forth on comfort or not. Right now, I have zero comfort in those words. Mostly because I'm buried under so much homework and have no time for anything. I have a research project to work on, that will literally take 2 semesters...I have a project on Lou Gehrig to start working on...I have a project on Albert Schweitzer and Bach that needs to be done before finals...I have midterms, other tests, papers....All while balancing two jobs, actually attending class, and trying to have a social life. I've given up on the latter, mostly because it's not possible it seems. Looking at my work schedule for my new job, I'm honestly amazed that I haven't been fired yet. I've requested off for this weekend for fall break, then the night of the 16th for my b'day party--but I'll be working in the a.m....then the morning of the 17th for my Pure Romance party--but working the night...Then asked completely off for the night of the 22nd so I can do some last minute cramming because I took off the next morning for the GRE...It just sucks that literally everything's happening right now, this month, and yeah...But they haven't said anything yet....So we'll see. But that's what's going on in my life...Hopefully it all slows down a little for me...

No Day But Today

It's true. There really is no day but today. I may have stolen that line from RENT, but I truly believe it. That's why every day should be lived to its fullest potential. Since adopting that 'mantra', I have:
1)Deleted people from my facebook that I either--do not talk to,--do not like and only had them to facebook stalk, or--only had them on there because of our past
I felt so good doing that because it freed me of useles emtions such as guilt, angst, sadness...I got into an argument with Landon's new girlfriend, and deleted him because I don't need the added stress in my life.
2)Made peace with those who have done me wrong, such as --Caroline. I figured I'd owed it to her to at least meet with her and talk about what happened that night, thinking she'd realize she needed to apologize...She didn't, and I didn't do anything wrong, so basically, I've said "enough". I don't need people in my life who constantly make me feel like it's all my fault when it's not.
3)Become friends with people that, at first, I never thought I would be, such as Kassi. We've become pretty good friends already, and I'm even going to play frisbee with her and her friends tonight. I'm pretty excited. Brian and I still aren't talking, but that'll change--at least, I hope it will...

I may be working all the time--still--, and I may have 0 money to show for it because of bills; I may be slowly losing whatever social life I had; and I may not get to see my family nearly as much as I'd like--but believe it or not, I'm happy with where my life is right this second. And you know why? Because there's No Day But Today :)

Slacking

Wow I'm such a slacker! I've been incredibly busy since moving in but it's all worth it! The house is amazing, and my job's going great :) Actually, we're having a party on Friday, I'm super stoked about it. :)

I
Love
Summer
<3

Score :)

Good things happened today--

BU won against OHIO STATE UNIVERSITY IN LACROSSE!!!!!!

I moved into my house--finally :)

I saw my parents--my daddy surprised me by coming :)

<3

Done :)

As of right now, I am a Senior at Bellarmine University!!!! :) I'm sitting at Nicole's because I can't move into my house til Saturday now :( But other than that, I'm legit!

I love summer <3